Man, I really need to learn to take these self-photos where I am sitting around my house, staring at the camera/ off into the distance. It seems everyone but me has had one at some point. I need to get on that...

I have to say that college over all has been a time of turmoil for me. I have come to question everything from what I want to do to what God wants me to do to what God thinks is most important. I have come in counter with every question from every angle, and screwed up alot in my answers I think. I have made alot of mistakes, and understand completely how so many kids get so screwed up when they go off to college. It's not just the schooling, it's the complete lack of familiarity, and much of your accountablity. Everything is constantly changing... one day you are sure you are focused in one direction, the next it could be completely different. I have had some many different, often reoccuring, directions in my life since I started college. It's easy to lose sight.

So I am extremely thankful that God gives me those reminders. Like I work temp jobs, and I just randomly meet people who find out I went to a Christian school and immediately interogate me on my walk with God. I need that so much and God really just provides this interesting situations. He really wants me back. No matter what I am focused on, God wants me to be focused on him more. I need to remember that.

So here is the tale of the sheer adventure that my life has been since my semester has ended. I have been searching for a good job and, as usual, have been through a lot of struggle in these recent days. After a few days of search, I found opportunity through a temp agency to work in the Discovery Channel's local warehouse. I was excited, and called my cousin Trey to let him know that there were opportunities available. On my way to my first day of work, I had a flat tire, my dad picked me up and I was about 10 minutes late, which I found disqualified me from starting for another 3 days or so...
In the meantime, Trey got a job there in an office rather than the warehouse, and started working. I called the temp agency and they told me that Discovery would not be adding workers on the day I was told to come back. So....
I tried some other options, which took plenty of time to find out that they were also not available. I finally called the temp agency back and found that if I could make it to the Discovery warehouse in 15 minutes, I could work 2nd shift. I hurried as fast as I could in the weather, and arrived 2 minutes late. Fate was on my side, and they still let me in, so I went into the cafeteria and waited for about 45 minutes. Then, the front desk lady came in and told us that for only the second time since she had started there, they would not be hiring any of the temps brought in today. So I got to come home early.

Every man has a core within him which is not known by any other man. This innner depth of man is of a different nature from the rest of his existance. A. W. Tozer called this "man's 'I Am,' which is a gift from the I AM who created him." Man's "I Am" is dependant on God and is in Scripture refered to as the spirit of man. In I Corinthians 2:11, the Bible says that man knowns of the things of man from the spiritu of man, and that God knows the things of God through the Spirit of God. Man's "I Am" is his source of truly knowing himself, and the Spirit of God uses this as the inlet to giving man insight into God and the things of God. In John 4:23, the Bible says that true worship is in spirit. That means that true worship lifestyle is a spirit in the depths of existence that recognizes God and a worldview that is balanced correctly. This is necessary to truly worship God in life, not in an instance, but perpetuated.

One of the things that amazes me the most about technology is how easy it has become to perform almost any type of art and get it out there seriously. For example, anyone can choose to put their own tracks on Itunes and recieve any revenue they may attain. Radiohead has shown us that anyone who has the ability to get attention and a catchy musical writing ability can easily see results from the individual, not required to please some label, but done even in leasure or just for the heck of it. Also, via the ads on this blog itself, I found websites were you can write and publish a book comepletely electronically, without any need to find a publisher. Again, this is a completely individual level thing, were you only have to impress the people, not requiring someone to back it in any way, like a label or publishing house. There is also clothing design, which I'm sure most are already familiar with. These services, at there basic level, are almost always free, and the only down side is that the buyer sees a slight (or not so slight) price markup. This seems a small price to pay to wear or listen to something more exactly what you want, and is especially small for the clothing designer, author, and recording artist who has a full time job elsewhere.

It has been a while since I last posted on here, mostly due to that fact that I had exams this week and since then been all over the place. I am finally settling down.

I have decided to take on the minor but thoughtful hobby of "frankensteining" my electric guitar, as I like to call it. In more and more ways, I am beginning to enjoy doing things in a homemade way. Most of the music I have been listening to more recently is very raw and less produced feeling. For those who have been reading, I also discovered the are of steampunk, which is inspiring. I love to not spend money, and recently I had the idea of browsing ebay and looking for low priced nicer quality random parts for my guitar, regardless of if they naturally fit it. I think I am really going to enjoy tinkering with this. It seems they are continually coming out with new guitar models that resemble the destroyed personalized guitars of rock and roll legends, and I figure its cooler to have a personally personalized guitar that a copy of a personalized guitar.

I also recently got ahold of an old beat up Harmony hollow body guitar, and I am thinking about trying to do something with it as well. It's pretty beaten up, but I want to experiment with it, seeing and it is so beautiful and harmony guitars are really coming back into style in many areas. Well, this is nothing like the normal, but that's a great way to be, I'll try and keep ya updated...

I have just added a '08 presidential poll that is actually linked with every other site that has a similar poll, so not only can you see how people who view this site feel, but you can also see how other around the country feel. You are able to cast one vote per month, so choose wisely....